Musically Inclined Therapy

mu·sic

 [myoo-zik] 

noun

1.

an art of sound in time that expresses ideas and emotions insignificant forms through the elements of rhythm, melody,harmony, and color.

2.

the tones or sounds employed, occurring in single line (melody) or multiple lines (harmony), and sounded or tone sounded by one or more voices or instruments, or both.

3.

musical  work or compositions for singing or playing.

4.

the written or printed score of a musical  composition.

5.

such scores collectively.

Music to me is more than just a synchronization of sounds..to me music is EVERYTHING and has a purpose for everything  ever emotion, every thought, every action... I can listen to a song, melody, composition on any given day at any given time and its like that synchronization of sounds is saying exactly what is on my mind or putting the world around me into the proper perspective enabling me to understand what is going on. There are songs that i can listen to a million times that will never out play themselves to me because they to me are the story of my life...here are a few...

1. Over My Dead Body-Drake ...now i know that Drake is the hottest thing out right now and yadda yadda i could honestly careless about his fame but is music touches me sometimes...this song in particular i put on repeat when i feel defeated and to be honest its not even really the rapping part its the course and intro that captivate me most..."How I'm feeling it doesn't matter cause you know I'm okay, instead i ask my self why do you hurt me, when you know, you know I'm the same, i know, i know that you love me baby their trying to take you away from me over my dead body..." now I'm sure that this is meant to be a love song but to me this is more of an interpretation of someone taking my happiness away from me. like that one person who never wants to see you smile or be happy EVER and they would do anything to take it from you so you say over my dead body.
2. Shake It Off- Florence and The Machine...i don't know what it is about Florence or Her Machines but every single song i hear from her always seems to move me in ways unimaginable; maybe its her vocals or the way the lyrics & the melody go together who knows...this particular song however is by far my favourite because it has the potential to uplift you from the worst day ever while also doubling as a phenomenal breakup/ glum mood anthem... from the opening sequence..."regret collect like old friend here to relieve your darkest moments i can see no way, i can see no way and all of the ghouls come out to play and every demon wants his pound of flesh but i like to keep my issues drawn its always darkest before the dawn...shake it out shake it out shake it out shake it out ooh woaaah; shake it out shake it out shake it out shake it out ooh woaah, and it's hard to dance with a devil on your back, so shake him off, ooh woaah..." to the very last piano key stroke and drum beat this is the greatest song I've ever stumbled upon... 
3. Hustler Muzik- Lil Wayne...as much as i honestly cant stand the new weezy/tunchi/weezy f baby(he is clearly running competion with Diddy for most nicknames)... this is one song that i do honestly love its such a real grind hard go for the gold kind of song that gets ur mind focused..."my head to the sky my feet on the ground my finger to the judge if my money dont move..." this song is such a inspiration to keep the hustle goin whether it be your legal or illegal one...
4.  He Say She Say-Lupe Fiasco...i FUCKIN LOVE LUPE he is the dopest rapper ever i love him for his lyrics and the way he puts things together on a track that HE produces and write on his own is FIRE... Food and Liquor and The Cool are the two best albums from him but this song is such a touching track. i can relate to it in so many ways from the course to the verses this track is like an anthem to me...:i cant i wont i cant i wont let you leaveee, i dont know what you want, you want more from me..." i listened to this song 23 times on repeat the first time i heard it...
5. Fuckin Perfect- P!nk...this song is the get mad and get over it, nobody's perfect, high expectation having, overbearing, fuck you song and for that i absolutely love it...as a matter of fact i love Pink all together as an artist she is just such an inspirational role model and she is such a chill person... Pink doesnt want anyone to feel bad about who they are. She sys to not pay attention to anyone's opinion of who you are; you opinion is the only one that matters..."mistreated, mis placed, misunderstood, miss no way its all good, it didnt slow me down; mistaken always second guessing underestimated, look, im still around...pretty pretty please dont you ever ever feel like your less than less than perfect,pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel like your nothing you are fuckin perfect to me... Those are my top five for the moment off the top there are plenty more but maybe i will save them for another post...

With Love,
 From A Golden Child....

FIRST BLOG POST EVER!

Soo here i am writing my first blog post ever and I'm stumped on what to write about....

I've never had a blog before but I have always wanted to do one so here goes.

My first blog post is going to be about knowing ME...i know it sounds dumb and may be a bit boring but hey I'm new to this so dont expect perfection... 

 I'm 22 yes but i have the mind and life experiences that some 45 year olds have never been through.Where to start? well for the most part im a pretty humble person, im smart, im well spoken, and all my life all i have ever wanted to do was fit in with my peers. i am a people attract-er im like a fucking magnet when it comes to  people for some reason they just flock to me. i have no problem with this but when it causes me strife i have to express it.

 I spend most days crying myself to sleep because i dont know wtf to do with myself on the outside looking in i look like quite a content individual but really i am filled with alot of things anger, sadness, joy, shock, excitement, confusion...and the list continues. so yesterday i re-read a book that i once enjoyed (Yesterday i Cried-Iyanla Vanzant) and i finished it in a day re-read the same lessons, and i actually took something form it today. i learned that i am an internally damaged individual and i self-sabotage all the time...why do i do this well when you grow up with no rules or stability then these things are bound to happen. i love my grandma god knows i do but she is my biggest enabler; i could do now wrong in her eyes EVER hence why i am such a deviant person. Living this way for the past 22 years has got me into my share of problems jail, relationship, drama in general. my dad well lets just say he is like my older brother and my mom is my older sister because their parenting skills were never the greatest due to the fact that they were young when they became parents. so im left to be raised by the neighborhood savages who have built me up and torn me apart only to attempt to rebuild me in the worst way possible until i have had no choice but to take matters in my own hands (never a good idea) especially since i have no idea where to start rebuilding...do i start with my realtionship troubles or do i start with my insecurities.... I dont know where im going to start but one of these good days it will hit me in the face like a ton of bricks.

  Life is what you make it and as a human i am bound to make mistakes but why when i make them does everyone around me make it seem like its the end of the world i am not perfect but shit i try...

With Love,

from a Golden Child....